"Hate is not the opposite of love, it is apathy.
To not feel any emotion towards another is much more painful than the demonstration of hate, because of the lack of care for another cuts at the deepest part of our souls of why we live. Indifference to good or bad leaves only an absent body without feeling, mind, or spirit.
The opposite of love is not hate, it’s indifference. The opposite of beauty is not ugliness, it’s indifference. The opposite of faith is not heresy, it’s indifference. And the opposite of life is not death, but indifference between life and death.”
I’ve done such a good job in building up this identity I forever desired that even now at my lows I’m still able to hold myself high.
And maybe that’s what prevented me from having a proper break down.
Because even amongst this shit I still have this optimism and strength and refusal to back down pushing through.
Very slightly and small, but still present nonetheless.
I have no idea what to do, so I’ll just stick to waiting it out some more